krankor

mmm....dead babies. yum!
I need to tell you my dead baby jokes.
Did you have fun going out? I hope so.
Robert called me last nite!!! I almost puked all over myself. I have no idea what this feeling is all about...i've never felt like this about anyone! But, i picked him up and we went out to bumfuck egypt and broke into a church. We chilled there for a couple hours and discussed life and horror movies and music ...and anything else that came up. I'm such a giant dork.
Jeff called me up a few minutes ago [its 7:30 am] and screamed at me. I just dont know what to think or say or do...Me + Jeff had so many "future plans" (like buying a house, getting married, etc.) that its difficult not to feel guilty. I'm not doing anything wrong because i'm not cheating on him. But, i'm totally, completely, insanely in love with robert....And i've only known him 3 days! And, i've been really fed up with jeff the past year. I tried to break up with him but he basically wouldnt let me...He's a nice, honest guy who's going somewhere in life, everyone likes him, he has money and can buy whatever he wants (for me and himself), he has a nice car.....but, i havent been physically attracted to him in a long time, just because he's nice to everyone else doesnt mean he's nice to me (he's not. he makes me cry weekly).....I DONT FUCKING KNOW WHAT TO DO!!!!
Robert is the exact opposite of that. He doesnt have money, he's not going anywhere, he has a car that doesnt work, everyone thinks he's insane....*sigh*
^leans on c.j.'s shoulder^ I know you dont want to hear any of my girlie babble...I really feel like im 12 or something. I've never in my life had this problem. It's so wierd. The question is-do I stay with something that doesnt make me all that happy, but i know will be stable and afford me the life i want to live. Or, do i go with unsure?
Let's drink everclear at yer house this weekend and go swimming.
*kisses for my favorite robot*
fantasy.