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Wednesday Jan 03, 2007

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so i picked up the keys to the new apartment, i have til noon friday to move outta this one. ive got my work cut out for me, needless to say. but thats okay.

i realized something yesterday. well, i had realized it before that, it just hit me how extreme it is yesterday. im afraid of dying. but its not like a rational fear of dying down the line. im afraid all the time. when im on the road, im afraid a car is gonna smash into me. around people, im afraid someone's gonna rob me and kill me. im afraid of being poisoned by anything, like if i swallow a bit of toothpaste or eat too much iron. if im getting fucked up, im afraid ill od even though ive taken more in the past and i know good and well that there's no way im gonna od. im afraid of my apartment burning while im asleep. i dont know how many times a day i picture a scenario of me dying. ive always got this horrible sense of impending doom that i never used to have before. its completely irrational and im not sure where it came from and i have no idea how to make it go away.

there, i said it. *phew*

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saintwithascope:
And the best of luck to you!

I never had that showering fear... but I probably will now
Jan 3, 2007
sapiens:
Hey, thanks for the know on the haps.

BTW, it is kinda late notice here but I happen to be in the moving biz right now and maybe I could lend a hand. If not, cool. Just give a holla!
Jan 4, 2007

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