kowtow

Today is one of those days where the difference between friends and acquaintances is so readily apparent. I am just having a bad day, my head is spinning, I wish that I was anywhere else but here, I don't really have any friends that I feel comfortable talking to and I just want to say fuck it all.

I hate these days, because I feel like such a loser. I mean the truth of the matter is that I have a good life right now. I have a wife that loves me, a roof over my head, a job, I have plans for the future that look promising and somehow I just feel restless and uneasy. I have some people that would say I need a gratitude adjustment, but that it isn't it, because it implies that I am not grateful, or maybe not grateful enough.

But for some reason, that then seems to marginalize the fact that I don't feel good.

I don't know.

And no, putting it out on SG doesn't make me feel any better, but I guess it gets rid of some of it.