kottonkandy

hello people of sg.
life blows, in case you were not aware.
i've been out at the boy's house since monday night. and i have to head home today.
i hate going home anymore. i feel like everything just fucking sucks there.
my mum got kicked out of her house the other day and thought that she was going to lose it..
so she admitted herself to the hospital.
they were running tests on her to see that she didn't try to overdose or anything and they found coke in her system. fucking super.
so then she had to move from there to the rehab center in the hospital.
and now she expects me to take stuff down to her and its a pain in the ass cause i dont drive and there isn't really anyone to take me since my friends work and the boy won't be around on the days i'm allowed to go visit her.
blah.
i can't wait til everything blows over.
i can't even sit at my house alone anymore without freaking out. i just don't want to be alone i guess.
my anxiety has been through the roof.
what do you think about counseling?
i'm really scared of it but i wonder if something like that would help me?
i dunno.
i'm so thankful that i at least have the boy's house to go to. its nice to get away from everything for a while at least.
sorry if this is all rambling and repetitive..i'm just kinda writing whatever..