kottonkandy

wow it's been a long time since i've written. i haven't really been doing much...actually i've been doing as close to nothing as one could possibly do. i've been missing a lot of class and i'm really behind with all of my work. for some reason i just can't seem to get into the swing of things this quarter. all of my classes feel so overwhelming and i just don't feel like putting in all of the extra effort. to be completely honest, i would quit school in a heartbeat, were it not for my circumstances. plus i feel like i've put in two and a half years so i might as well finish as this point.
in other news, my personal life seems to be taking a turn for the better. i feel like i've actually met someone who's good for me. really, i'm almost too afraid to jump into anything because it seems like everything i touch turns to shit...but its worth it. i think i'm really going to try this because if i don't i know i'll regret it. i'm more afraid of getting hurt than anything in the world, i just don't think i can stand to do it again.
life is a tragedy, really.