kostisix

I just keep pondering if I wanna have kids some day, and maybe I do, and if so then I wanna be the guy who really means it upon the incantation of "Till death do us part" because having divorced parents is not a nice thing and to be able to keep that promise then she has just got to be my best friend and everything else I've ever dreamed of. I'm afraid to date or even get to know anyone because I don't want to hurt anyone's feelings or waste everyone's time. Right now I just feel so useless, miserable and lost that I don't know if even a new Lambo or Snoop Dogg's long gold plated bong would get me excited. I've just been lying in bed all day feeling like none of my dreams even matter and the only thing to look forward to is the chilling embrace of my own grave. I don't feel like I'm seventeen anymore. This sucks.