kosomot

I'm generally not a sad person, but not really happy either. The last five years have been hard for me, since I moved from NY. Most all of my real friends are there. So when I moved to North Carolina It was hard to leave all my close friends behind, but I had my brother ,his family, and my parents in NC. So it really wasn't so bad. Now i've been in Florida for a year, and I really know nobody here. It's been sad, depressing for the most part. The last couple months have been much better. A bunch of my friends & family have been down to visit, and i've met some really awesome people from SG in recent weeks. So i've been in a really happy state of mind for awhile now.
Last night for the strangest reason. Someone on the SG boards mentioned the year 1994. Sounds innocent enough, but that was a year that me and my best friend in the fucking world had the most awesome time of our lives. We were both generally not working. So we spent most of the year living life, like out of a scene from fear & loathing...So anyway just thinking about all the shit we went through together. It hit me for the first time since his Death That I'd never see him again ever. I have No idea why it took me over a year to finally break down, but I did last night.
I want to thank My friends here for all their kind words.
Niobe Thanks for always being there for me, and letting my cry on your shoulder last night. It really helped. I love you
Agent thanks for talking me out of my sadness, into gayness. I love you man :manhug:
evilwillow Your happiness friends thread for me this morning was the most awesome thing. Thank you. I love you.
sarcasticmenace Thank you for keeping me company on the phone. I really love talkin to you. Love you.
Now I'm crying again. What a fucking wuss.

Thanks to all my SG friends all you guys have helped me through some very lonely times. I love all of you.

You can pretty much expect image updates for the next few weeks. All this personal shit is depressing. Thanks again.



~Kos