korie

Hey SG land! I’ve been MIA for a while because I’ve been working on myself. I have some stuff that’s hard to talk about, but since we’re all family here, I feel inclined to speak on this.

So…I’m an addict and an alcoholic. I’ve struggled with this for a really long time now, and I’m finally getting the help I need. It’s been a rough road, but I feel so much better being sober.

Some of you ladies have seen me in action and have observed me drink wayyyyy too much. That was my alcoholism in full effect. The drug stuff I’ve kept pretty tightly under wraps, but I’ve told a few of you and I’m sure some of the girls I haven’t told have had suspicions.

Over the past couple of months, I’ve survived 2 overdoses and because of that, I realized that it’s time for me to make some big changes in my life.

I need to take responsibility for myself as an adult, and heal the deep seeded wounds that have kept me in my addiction. I’ve blamed my family and trauma for way too long and I can no longer sit in this shit or I will likely die from the disease of addiction.

I wish I could say these 2 overdoses were my first, but that’s also not the case. On top of these 2 there have been multiple others over the years.

Before, I wasn’t really afraid of dying, but now that I have love in my life from this awesome community and my friends from school, I realized that life may be worth living.

Over the years, I’ve acted carelessly, risking my life on many occasions. I’ve also hurt and scared the crap out of the people closest to me through my high risk behaviors. Now I intend to work on these things and begin to change the course of my life in a positive way. This is the self love that I’ve never afforded myself but have always needed.

I’m putting this out there in hopes that I can lean on this beautiful community for support as my recovery will be an ongoing (and sometimes messy) process.

Before, I didn’t want to put anyone out so I thought it’d be best to keep this to myself. However, I’m learning that being vulnerable is okay. So here I am guys. This is me….in all my brokenness and fucked upness, here I am.

I hope that this doesn’t taint anyone’s perception of me. But, with International Overdose Awareness Day and Suicide Awareness Month approaching quickly, I hope that any of you that may be suffering in silence with addiction and/or mental health will feel inspired to reach out for help as well.

This shit is deadly, and it’s killed many of my friends. I don’t want to be a statistic and I don’t want any of you to be one either.

Because addiction is pretty common, I hope me speaking out about this will help to destigmatize addiction and alcoholism. I hope any of you that may struggle feel that you can also reach out to me for sober support. Although I’m still learning to process my emotions without numbing them, I think that “the therapeutic value of one addict helping another is without parallel.”

I love all of you, and thank all of you for being so loving to me over the years I’ve been on the site.

My name is Korie and I’m an addict. 🖤