kore

i went to the emergency room because there are no walk in clinics in this town and i needed to get various drugs for various things that ail me.

i hate hospitals. i hate them and i don't want to go there ever. i've been locked up twice in my 18 years, and every time i'm in an emergency room, i feel like they aren't going to let me leave.

this panic washes over me. this sort of creeping insanity that i will have to stay and stay and stay...

but today i only had to wait three hours, see a dotor and leave. my emotional stability was not on trial today, no, and for this, i am glad.

i got the prescription filled and there are many pills i have to pop. i hear they'll give me a buzz too. this makes me happy.

now, tell me about a song that inspires you or gives you hope. you know, that one song that just puts you in that right mood. for me, in the past, it's been with every light by the pumpkins, i am revenant by the distillers or indestructable by rancid (tim can be such an optimist ). so what songs do it for you? i need some inspiring.