koolthing

OK - I finally took a few minutes to make a picture...you know how it is - always for others, never for yourself...

So it's almost midnight here, and I am avoiding more spook calls - it's daytime in Amerika...

:: damn - I am sure they are reading this - they know everything ::

I am desperately trying to seem aloof - but I can't.
I feel alone, and confused, and emotional when she is around. None of it makes sense.
I tell myself to practice what I preach - that we are lucky to have what comes to us and revel in the moment - the joy, or pain, or whatever we feel will fade in time, and leave us longing for more.
I think that is what I am feeling now - a withdrawl from passion...

You know that feeling is the same when I get a bunch of kids and they are so excited to get their hands on the video camera I brought to our workshop, but they are scared to take it, and an hour later I have "coached" them into making their own music video...I don't teach - people teach themselves, I just cheer them on and convince them they can do it - all by themselves...

Well the woman of my dreams just rand the bell - so I better go get some more abuse...