koolthing

The challenge of the day was coming to terms with my own sense of entitlement. I was unhappy with our room, with the situation...
I bitched and manipulated in order to get my way - which I always do.
We are now in a nice junior suite, with two rooms, and I felt relieved, like I had received what I deserve. Granted the fact that I have been a loyal customer and stayed with them in Istanbul, Cannes, Amsterdam, London, New York, LA, Brussels, Paris...you get the picture - I have been a loyal customer, and don't feel like I deserve to be given a shit room in severe disrepair. I feel justified.

I saw an old man fall down in the middle of the street today.
Everyone stood there looking at him, doing nothing.
As I ran into the street to help him, I once again felt the burn of what seemed to be justified anger welling up inside of me. He had hit his head, and was bleeding. I got someone to call an ambulance and comforted him until they arrived with a growing crowd who weren't interested in helping - just interested in the spectacle. Mike helped me stabilize the old man, and we left, with a few people giving us alcohol wipes to clean up. Bizarre...
It felt like a random act of kindness, and I spent the rest of the day with the memory of looking into the old man's and him saying thank you, thank you for helping me. I am just an old Indian, thank you for helping me.

I don't know if I will be able to deal with seeing people feeding their children dirt. I don't know if I will be able to deal with entire generations dead and dying with no hope for the future. I just doubt so many things right now - and want to have faith in humanity...

Suggestions?

BTW zooloofreak...are you OK, that was a disturbing post!