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konekoya

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Aug 11, 2020
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I‘m here. Here. Here. But I‘m not.
It’s just a blur

You can see everything moving

Except yourself

It’s loud. But also weirdly quiet.
I don’t know where I am.

I don’t know what’s happening.

I don’t recognise the person in the mirror.

I look at my hands - they‘re not mine.
I look at my body - it‘s not mine.

It moves. It breathes. It lives. But... it feels dead.


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softnsweet:
Very sad and scary, dissociation from the fear, pain and shame, one person cannot handle all this so other parts are needed to help survive. You are on a scary journey and I hope you can grab onto someone to help you navigate the maze in you head and find a bit of quiet and yourself.
Aug 11, 2020
konekoya:
@rode0joe yes I am! Just late night thoughts.
Aug 12, 2020

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