What I like to call productive unemployment. Amid completing a myriad of projects and chores that I've been procrastinating for... well exact lengths of time are on a need to know basis. I've also completed tasks for my disabled mother. I'm getting ready to uproot myself to a new, old city. I have also decided it's time to buckle down and try my hand at entrepreneurial social networking. For some years now I have dreamed of starting a blog, becoming a suicide girl... maybe getting into film... yes I mean of the adult variety, I'm really not ashamed of my aspirations. I've just been in this rut lately and the harsh, predominately male dominated world of heavy equipment operating just made the rut in question a "borrow pit" sized hurdle to leap... It's funny that unemployment of all things could motivate such a reassessment of priorities. I love building roads (weird thing to get into but very fulfilling) but I don't have any desire to be an over stressed and unappreciated vag in a mens world, nothing not even love could make me keep putting myself through such an ordeal. currently working on a fetish website launch and also going to make a more earnest attempt at my revived dream of entering the Suicide Girls world.... embracing things I've shunned like social media... oh my lanta!!! hold the phone, my world is going all topsy turvy and I think I'm gunna like it on the here ceiling!!
