kolic

I let you read my journal. I didn't know you'd be able to look at my past entries if you weren't a member. I prayed you wouldn't find out because I didn't want to hurt you because I didn't want to risk losing you. I've never felt like such a shitheel and it hurts to feel guilt after all this time. I forgot how much it hurts. And now I'm here posting this with the hopes that you'll read it and realize that I'm posting how sorry I am and how much I truly love you to the world.

Leslie, I am so infinately truly sorry for hurting you.

Leslie, I care about you more than I've ever cared about anyone else in my life. That scared the hell out of me because I'm not used to it and I've been hurt so many time and I've been in so many short term relationships.
And that's a hell of shitty excuse.
When you took me back after the break up, I saw it as a second chance, a chance to do things right and be the man you deserve.
And I still want to be the man you deserve.

I love you Leslie V.