kolic

Open rant to the guy at the Synagogue today:
Alright. I screwed up by putting a chumash on the floor and face down. It's a bible, I get it. Your tone was stern and you corrected me with several other people within earshot. I'm thoroughly embarrassed now, but I've learned my error. Thank you. I come from being a member of a religion that has...
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...Just saw the trailer for Boondock Saints 2: All Saints Day. When I found out about the sequel, especially with the cult success it's bloomed into as a status symbol for hipsters, I was a bit dismayed...
Then I found out the original writer got almost the entire original cast together and I saw the trailer...It looks pretty fucking awesome!

...Spaghetti without sauce or butter and water. Yum. Being completely broke and out of food sucks.

...Just had the kind of emotional vent I've needed. I know I don't post much, and I'm sorry. I don't think anyone even reads them when I do. Que sera. Makes sense. Seems like I only have bad things to report.
The vent. The season 3 finale of Dexter. His wedding. I cried like a fucking baby. I'm a bit embarrassed. Dexter...he's like a mirror...
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First time that I have vivid dreams in a long time and they're paranoid nightmares. I don't ever have nightmares. I was on this city on an island in a wooded area. Kinda looked like shots I've seen of the Pacific Northwest US. I'd done something to piss off a secret power in the city, like a mob boss or something. All I wanted to...
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My rent check bounced due to bad budgetting (computers aren't the answer for everything.), I'm depressed, miserable, lonely, I punched a hole in the bathroom wall when my shower water stopped mid flow for 20 minutes, I burned my fingers with matches, I had 3 overdraft notices in my mail, work was a bitch and a half, and when I tried to tell a friend...
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I have this really really creepy, ominous feeling. Not sure why. I feel like I failed something serious. It's got me a bit worried because my friend got drunk and cheated on his girl and was feeling really guilty then he went home and got paranoid because he says he smells "pussy and perfume" in the bedroom. He called me several times to keep him...
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Really went to a strip club for the first time tonight. My friend paid for 2 lap dances, one of which was a peice of crap $1 lap dance. The 2nd one was $20 (way overpriced imo) but the girl was tattooed and pierced and actually pretty hot, so over all, it wasn't that bad.

I still can't bring myself to objectify women that way....
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Eh. I had one of those nights last night. Friend took me out drinking after we got nicely stoned. We got decently fucked up (hell, woke up stoned, hated being at work, made me paranoid), but we had to deal with drama with the "normal" people. There were some girls there who were drunk and horny. And one ended up making out with my drinking...
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Either you die lonely as a Nice Guy or you live long enough to see yourself become an Asshole.

You know what I want more than anything? A group of friends to hang out with, get stoned/drink with, and watch stuff like the Shining and zombie movies and crazy shit like that.

Karma is bullshit. Period. End of story.

I decided to go out tonight to a gay club called the Majestic that I've gone to before. I thought, "Hey, it's Halloween, I've not gone out for months really, so I'd better go out tonight." I dressed up in the kinda outfit I used to wear to bondage clubs, even wore my collar, which I'm sensitive about...
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