Lately, my favorite thing to do is be up late when everything is quiet, everyone is asleep.
I sit in my room, in my bed and just draw, think, and organize. I don't have to worry about what other people are thinking or doing. I don't have to worry about hurting someone else just by interacting with them. I don't have to do anything for anyone else.
I am safe and comfortable when left to my own devices. Thinking about it now, it's like when I was growing up an only child. During the summer my parents would go to work and I was left at home with my grandma and most of the time I would just find things to do to entertain myself.
These are my first steps towards becoming a recluse.
I sit in my room, in my bed and just draw, think, and organize. I don't have to worry about what other people are thinking or doing. I don't have to worry about hurting someone else just by interacting with them. I don't have to do anything for anyone else.
I am safe and comfortable when left to my own devices. Thinking about it now, it's like when I was growing up an only child. During the summer my parents would go to work and I was left at home with my grandma and most of the time I would just find things to do to entertain myself.
These are my first steps towards becoming a recluse.
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razorshimmy:
Oddly enough, I've been doing the exact same thing. I've been a little worried about it, particularly after I said some really awful stuff to both people I didn't know and people I did, not too long ago. Actually, that was the day before I got so depressed. I wonder if it's the weather or something...?
mrs_misha:
not really, some of us need this alone time.. I do.. Quite often I need to be completely alone, it's sometime hard for MorningStar to get.. I just need it. to day dream, to be with myself.. A day to not have to ask someone else what they want to do or to consider anyone else s needs or wants. I don't have to be "ON". I sometimes fell guilty and selfish, but after a nice 6 or so hours I am doing much better and ready to re-enter the human race.
