I am making it happen
This could be something really good. This could be something really amazing. Maybe I'm just trying to see things that aren't there or maybe something really is there. Should I leave it up to chance or should I take this opportunity to make things happen?
I don't know if I have all the information I need to make this kind of decision. Is it possible to become stronger through this or will that not happen until afterwards? I mean standing on the verge of something that I have wanted, should I leap, trusting that this time he knows that he wants me? That he meant what he said?
So how do I decide if I want to fall into this again? Should I dive into the deep end of the pool or should I take it one step at a time letting my body adjust to the cold water? Could I stop with the cliches?
So here it is, what happens to me if he doesn't mean it? If he says he does, I fall in love, and then months later he comes back with something like, "I thought I could love you. I thought I could make myself fall in love but I don't think that is what this is. I'm sorry." Then what? I hurt. I wonder how bad though. Does that make it worth it to try? I mean what if he actually does feel that way?
I think this is why I should have taken more time to get there. That's what I need. Space. He needs space for the both of us. There's no rush and it will give me time to figure things out. Okay. Slow down, girl. This is for the best. Just slow down.
This could be something really good. This could be something really amazing. Maybe I'm just trying to see things that aren't there or maybe something really is there. Should I leave it up to chance or should I take this opportunity to make things happen?
I don't know if I have all the information I need to make this kind of decision. Is it possible to become stronger through this or will that not happen until afterwards? I mean standing on the verge of something that I have wanted, should I leap, trusting that this time he knows that he wants me? That he meant what he said?
So how do I decide if I want to fall into this again? Should I dive into the deep end of the pool or should I take it one step at a time letting my body adjust to the cold water? Could I stop with the cliches?
So here it is, what happens to me if he doesn't mean it? If he says he does, I fall in love, and then months later he comes back with something like, "I thought I could love you. I thought I could make myself fall in love but I don't think that is what this is. I'm sorry." Then what? I hurt. I wonder how bad though. Does that make it worth it to try? I mean what if he actually does feel that way?
I think this is why I should have taken more time to get there. That's what I need. Space. He needs space for the both of us. There's no rush and it will give me time to figure things out. Okay. Slow down, girl. This is for the best. Just slow down.
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RE your situation, don't know enough about it but being a loudmouth I'm going to offer some advice anyhow. HA! I'm currently with someone who's hung up over somebody (long, complex story where I'm a crazy fool)... and it's irritating. I'd say either just go BACK to that person you're stuck on and give it another go or forgo men unless it's for deliberate fun purposes. But I've also been burnt before so if this is the case, I'd seriously consider giving it time and don't allow yourself to rush into a world of potential pain.
Thanks for the comment, sorry it took so long to get back to you!