I've been reflecting on life for the past few days and I have come to a firm conclusion: 2010 sucks. 
It all started so well! I was moving in with my boyfriend, we had a gorgeous (and huge) flat on the beach, work was great, all my friends were happy and things were just fun! Yet, fast forward to November and it's now the polar opposite. The boy came home one evening in the summer (after being together for over 3 years) and said "I don't want this anymore" took some of his stuff and left. I've not seen him since. I lost the flat as I couldn't afford the rent on my own, I had to move back home and put all of my stuff in storage as my old room had been completely re-decorated and is now the fancy guest room. I've been living out of a suitcase since June. My closest friend moved back home and I miss her SO much. I lost my job 2 weeks ago and I'm bored out of my brain. Every job I interview for yields the same result - "Unfortunately you have not been successful on this occasion as we feel you are over qualified for this position. We wish you the best of luck in your future endeavours".
To top it all off - my health has now gone to shit. I've spent the past few weeks in and out of hospital. I've been poked and prodded in places where no one should be poked or prodded. I've had scans, biopsies, blood tests, urine tests, smear tests....you name it! Just waiting on the results now.
I'm trying to look on the positive side of things, but it's so hard when you don't have money coming in and you've got the word 'cancer' lurking in the back of your brain. Christmas is just around the corner and I know I'm going to be skint for it. I think I'm pretty lonely too. I hardly see my friends as they all spend their spare time with their significant others. I can't really travel to see people (lack of money) so im just stuck in the house all day applying for jobs that I know I don't really have a chance at getting.
I know that there are people out there a billion times worse off than I am, but still, I felt a little moan was in order. Now all I need is for someone to tell me to stop being such a girl and man up a bit. Any takers??
It all started so well! I was moving in with my boyfriend, we had a gorgeous (and huge) flat on the beach, work was great, all my friends were happy and things were just fun! Yet, fast forward to November and it's now the polar opposite. The boy came home one evening in the summer (after being together for over 3 years) and said "I don't want this anymore" took some of his stuff and left. I've not seen him since.
I lost the flat as I couldn't afford the rent on my own, I had to move back home and put all of my stuff in storage as my old room had been completely re-decorated and is now the fancy guest room. I've been living out of a suitcase since June. My closest friend moved back home and I miss her SO much. I lost my job 2 weeks ago and I'm bored out of my brain. Every job I interview for yields the same result - "Unfortunately you have not been successful on this occasion as we feel you are over qualified for this position. We wish you the best of luck in your future endeavours".
To top it all off - my health has now gone to shit. I've spent the past few weeks in and out of hospital. I've been poked and prodded in places where no one should be poked or prodded. I've had scans, biopsies, blood tests, urine tests, smear tests....you name it! Just waiting on the results now.
I'm trying to look on the positive side of things, but it's so hard when you don't have money coming in and you've got the word 'cancer' lurking in the back of your brain. Christmas is just around the corner and I know I'm going to be skint for it. I think I'm pretty lonely too. I hardly see my friends as they all spend their spare time with their significant others. I can't really travel to see people (lack of money) so im just stuck in the house all day applying for jobs that I know I don't really have a chance at getting.
I know that there are people out there a billion times worse off than I am, but still, I felt a little moan was in order. Now all I need is for someone to tell me to stop being such a girl and man up a bit. Any takers??
iwishiwas:
i hope every thing works out, your due some good luck