Happy New Year all 
Thought I would update seeing as I haven't done in a while! Everything is good in the life of Shoes at the minute and I am very much looking forward to the year ahead I don't know when my attitude changed to optimistic and more chilled out but it has and I am hugely bouncing off the walls happy of this, I don't think you can fully appreciate happiness until you have been at the other end of the spectrum. Everything is GOOD, I have great friends, a good social life, my family are stars, I'm enjoying my course and feeling that I am actually progressing and moving towards a huge mark in my life. I'm finally beginning to think that the bad times are behind me, I think, after 6/7 years of being depressed I actually feel happy. And it feels great.
How come men are like buses, nothing for ages and ages (well lets say nothing worth persuing) and then 3 spill their guts that they have feelings for you on one day. One is someone that I used to see a while back, nearly going 2 years back now, we worked together. He is 36, has a kid, I'm 20 I don't have children and don't want any for a long time, I'm at university and we are at 2 totally different places in our lives. He played with my feelings when we were together, everything was fine and then nothing, he stopped talking to me, stopped texting without any explaination. I was invited out to a work do a few weeks back so I went along and he was there, text me saying how good I looked and I thought, I know how much I've changed in the last year or so, I'm a lot stronger than I was and I did feel a bit vengeful. I kissed him, and danced with him and I'm not saying that I didn't enjoy it but he really did hurt me and I already knew I didn't really want it to go any further. He keeps texting me asking about us and I've managed to put him straight now that I don't want to be with him. I suppose what comes around goes around, he had the chance to be with me once and he threw it away.
The second lad I had an inkling that he liked me but again he is one of the lads that are in our group of friends, I don't want any of that anymore because I've seen just too many things go wrong that way and I just don't have feelings for him that way. He is a lovely lad and we are still friends so it's all good.
The third lad is someone that I really like, we've been on a date before. We met at a friends birthday party and got chatting on facebook afterwards, we talk everyday and I suppose we will have to see how it goes once I get back to my uni town. We both went to a house party last night and spent a lot of time with each other. He is my first ever proper new years kiss :-) I suppose it's just a wait and see situation.
Hope you have all had a wonderful christmas and new year, here's to a good one! xxxxx
Thought I would update seeing as I haven't done in a while! Everything is good in the life of Shoes at the minute and I am very much looking forward to the year ahead I don't know when my attitude changed to optimistic and more chilled out but it has and I am hugely bouncing off the walls happy of this, I don't think you can fully appreciate happiness until you have been at the other end of the spectrum. Everything is GOOD, I have great friends, a good social life, my family are stars, I'm enjoying my course and feeling that I am actually progressing and moving towards a huge mark in my life. I'm finally beginning to think that the bad times are behind me, I think, after 6/7 years of being depressed I actually feel happy. And it feels great.
How come men are like buses, nothing for ages and ages (well lets say nothing worth persuing) and then 3 spill their guts that they have feelings for you on one day. One is someone that I used to see a while back, nearly going 2 years back now, we worked together. He is 36, has a kid, I'm 20 I don't have children and don't want any for a long time, I'm at university and we are at 2 totally different places in our lives. He played with my feelings when we were together, everything was fine and then nothing, he stopped talking to me, stopped texting without any explaination. I was invited out to a work do a few weeks back so I went along and he was there, text me saying how good I looked and I thought, I know how much I've changed in the last year or so, I'm a lot stronger than I was and I did feel a bit vengeful. I kissed him, and danced with him and I'm not saying that I didn't enjoy it but he really did hurt me and I already knew I didn't really want it to go any further. He keeps texting me asking about us and I've managed to put him straight now that I don't want to be with him. I suppose what comes around goes around, he had the chance to be with me once and he threw it away.
The second lad I had an inkling that he liked me but again he is one of the lads that are in our group of friends, I don't want any of that anymore because I've seen just too many things go wrong that way and I just don't have feelings for him that way. He is a lovely lad and we are still friends so it's all good.
The third lad is someone that I really like, we've been on a date before. We met at a friends birthday party and got chatting on facebook afterwards, we talk everyday and I suppose we will have to see how it goes once I get back to my uni town. We both went to a house party last night and spent a lot of time with each other. He is my first ever proper new years kiss :-) I suppose it's just a wait and see situation.
Hope you have all had a wonderful christmas and new year, here's to a good one! xxxxx
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I hope it all continues.