kokeshidreams

Nightmares are getting to me again. I had such a horrible dream last night that my nan had died and I woke up crying, I was sobbing for about half an hour genuinely mourning for my nan until I had to convince myself it werent real. This is happening too much my dreams are confusing me between whats real and what's not. I had to ring my nan this morning to just make sure, I love her to bits, she was asking me why I werent at home this weekend and if she could send a couple of carrier pigeons up with a sunday dinner for me. Just hearing her voice was enough but I still wanted a cuddle from her!

My friend overdosed last night, it werent a big overdose but that doesn't matter, the fact that she wanted to hurt herself is worry enough for me. The overdose thing and the dream last night got me thinking about my grandad, he passed away 3 years ago from a serious overdose. I miss him so much *tears welling up again just thinking about it* I know it wasn't to be mailcious and that he was poorly but it still hurts. I just have nobody around me here to give me a cuddle or tell me everythings alright