kokei

I went to the Dr. today and scheduled my surgery for next Thursday to have the lump on my chest removed. unless i can't get the day off of work or something.

I'm pretty low lately. Lonely and all, spending the majority of my time in my room , and reading or playing Wow. Have to save money and all. especially if i ever want...
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Ever wish you were talented in an aspect you weren't? i really wish i had never let my art slide like i did. let alone be better at drawing. i woul dhave become a tatttoo artist. yeah they dont make a lot of money, but the freedom, of lifestyle, appearance and such would have probably made me a lot happier.

i've been waiting to go...
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just another day nothing going on. did work around the house fun...

I'm drunk.. ive decided i dont car eanymore.. so yesh i guess fuck you..

you taught me the secrets,the truths about life.
the whispers your parents hold to far corners.
why we cross the street to stay clear of dark allies.
you taught me how to feel, if only one side.
you taught me pain, and how to hate myself.
you taught me blame, and how not to trust myself.
so i sit here alone, with my worst enemy....
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So another b-day has passed. I'm another year older and nothing is really diffrent. i spent the evening alone for the most part other than having dinner with an old friend. not because it was my bday, but just because.

I got a t-shirt from my brother that says "I'm the evil twin" .

other than that it was a normal day.

Ok its almost my bday. we wont even get into the fact im getting old

my PA is doing ok, still a little sore but ill live.

and lil you need to let me know when you will be up here so i can take off a day or two..

J

p.s. moved my personal webpage. its still under construction, but feel free to go...
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Go di hate how things are sometimes. sometime si wish i was a completely diffrent person than i am..

this song makes so much sense right now


hey pig
yeah you
hey pig piggy pig pig pig
all of my fears came true
black and blue and broken bones you left me here
i'm all alone my little piggy needed something new
nothing can stop me now
I don't care anymore
nothing can stop me now
I just don't care
hey pig
nothing's turning...
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Sitting Alone in the dark
Seeing the darkness for what it is
Friend, confidant, ally
A protector, blinding the truth
Taking you into the bosom of solitude
A warm safe place to hide
We are only ourselves when we are alone
Alone in the darkness you will see yourself for the first time
Reflected in the shadows
In the reflection you see all that you...
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