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Update for my friends:
So as most of you know, I've decided on going through the transition and becoming (physically as I always have been mentally) a trans person. Here's a little update on what's been going on lately.

I got a brand new job at Z Gallerie as an Assistant Manager which will give me enough money to support myself if I choose to stay in Naples for a little bit (still less than a year as I'm DYING to get to LA) and will give me insurance after 90 days so I'll be able to go to the doctor and get hormones (hopefully) and really get this going. I do realize that this is a process that takes years, I just started way later than I would have liked, so I'm ready to get it going.

My mom has now gone to two PFLAG meetings, the first one with me and the second by herself. I really do think it's going to help her a lot with dealing with her feelings of loss (and hopefully she won't feel like she's losing me at all, because she's not). Thursday night she brought back a human right equal sign sticker for me and one for her car. She's never put ANY kind of sticker on her car, but that one is now on her right back window. I put mine on the trunk of my scooter.

We watched "Transamerica" yesterday. I thought it was a really good movie. We had a little discussion about it afterwards. Mom said that she thought it was a tragic story which told me she's still seeing being trans as something that's always bad. I then told her that sure, she had to go through some crap, but in the end her life works out and she's happy just like everyone else. I think that may have made a dent, so we'll see. I've come to the conclusion that she probably won't just wake up one day and be all ok with this. It's going to take little dents in her wall over time and eventually the wall will crumble...and that's ok. It took me over 10 years to become ok with myself thinking and feeling this way so it's totally fine that she's not 100% after just over a month. Kinda unrealistic to think everyone in my life would accept it fully right away.

So, there you have it. My life in a nut shell (on that subject at least) in blog form for ya. If you have something to say to me about this, please just leave a comment here so that if it really means something to me, I can read it more than once. I LOVE it when I can revisit comments. Thanks much and I love you guys!!!

You, my friends of SG, are my rock.