Okay i'm gonna do this...
]I'm not quite sure of my self these days. With a baby on the way and the business still in the red, i havent made a paycheck in months. Not that i havent worked my ass off. I miss the girl who ran amuck. The one with no kids, no man, no responsibiities. I remeber being loaded on PCH and that was my plans for the day.
Last month i wanted to hang from the rafters and this month i'm expecting. I havent got laid since i found out cuz i'm scared to death of things you all don't need to know about. I can't stand owning my own business and i'm feeling a bit strangled by it. The pressure is too much. I cant wait to be more assured of myself.
Then theres the blog. I read all these blogs filled with quaint little posts regarding other peoples worlds and can't help but think of just how bland i actually am. How talentless and ignorant i truelly am. Trueth hurts but i can take it. Especially when its just self- actualization. Its never painful like that.
]I'm not quite sure of my self these days. With a baby on the way and the business still in the red, i havent made a paycheck in months. Not that i havent worked my ass off. I miss the girl who ran amuck. The one with no kids, no man, no responsibiities. I remeber being loaded on PCH and that was my plans for the day.
Last month i wanted to hang from the rafters and this month i'm expecting. I havent got laid since i found out cuz i'm scared to death of things you all don't need to know about. I can't stand owning my own business and i'm feeling a bit strangled by it. The pressure is too much. I cant wait to be more assured of myself.
Then theres the blog. I read all these blogs filled with quaint little posts regarding other peoples worlds and can't help but think of just how bland i actually am. How talentless and ignorant i truelly am. Trueth hurts but i can take it. Especially when its just self- actualization. Its never painful like that.
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nursejill:
Aww girl ! You are so beautiful and so much fun to be with. Seeing you in chat always brightens my day. And opening your own buisiness takes so much strength. I know I am way to much of a wimp to ever even try it. Everything will work out.
maligne:
Don't be so hard on yourself! 