kludog

ok i feel a little better. went for a nice run yesterday, i felt like straight crap right afterwards, i dont know if it was a lack of water or just eatin bad food.
i started gettin ready to leave this place, i might not have a very long leave due to some paperwork mess up i still have alot to do before i leave, sorta feels overwhelming,
i am glad i have the kind ppl that gave me motivational speeches. i guess even i need those sometimes. thanks
i miss seeing spiky in sg chat. well she must be havin a killah time. and i miss talkin to ltrain everyday. i miss olympia, i miss washington state. but the sooner i get out of here, the sooner i get back to wazzu.
i have been watching too much discovery channel, i want a chopper sooo bad. i was think last night in bed what i could do to make money to get a chopper. there is a turn key chopper for around 15-16 grand.
i need to stay awake , my sleep schedule is messed up, but i am sleeping more
well that is all for now. kinda boring without the sadness or maddness.

ok after this evening i realized that i am happy with little human interaction. i was pretty much alone growin up and i think i either got used to it, or it messed me up, so now i lack social skills. i get all giddy when girls talk to me, in fact , so giddy that i have a hard time being myself, i hope that i get over this giddiness. so this isnt sad is it?

ok it isnt easy being 'happy'