klu

i have been cursed with having empathy, sympathy and emotions. i want to remove them all.
what is a good way to do that?
i saw a girl last night who i liked at a bar. she came up said hi, i said hi. it was an awkward moment. later i think i overheard a friend tellin her that i really liked her, but she said somethin about me bein a friend. the word friend has almost turned into an insult for me now.
i know i am not nice to look at, i am tryin to improve my looks. i started playin basketball in hopes of gettin in better shape. i hope to someday have money for plastic surgery.
i think it would be nice to be sexy, to say no to all those who reject me now. revenge would be sweet, that is probably why i wont ever be attractive, it would be too much fun. i would laugh in everyones face. i would be a jerk. but i would be nice to ppl who had good personalities. or at least i would try.