klu

tonight,
i realized that someone i thought to be a cool person, really isnt. too bad.
i also realized that when someone finds out i like them, it is a bad thing. a very bad thing, like finding out you are liked by the elephant man i guess is a bad thing. i was in such denial for so long. now i can justify my withdrawal from society. it isnt out of self loathing or pity. it is out of bein tired of the disgusted reaction i get from someone who finds out i am interested in them. oh yeah, the whole let someone down nice and easy thing is serious bullshit. the person really can see through it and it hurts more then gettin straight up rejected. so the next time someone likes you that you deem insignificant. dont try that i am gonna say i have a boyfriend to let him down easy bullshit, cause it makes you look a billion times worse. oh by the way if i ever wanted you, fuck off i seriously hate you now.