kloiterra

went out with her tonight. she said she wanted to fuck my brains out. drove her all over, finally ending up in the shittiest bar in the shittiest town in the shittiest state in the shittiest region of this increasingly shitty country.
she wanted to get drunk. spent my grocery money to make her happy. she got pretty loaded, then decided it would be a...
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new potentially most humbling moment happened today: monitored urine analysis. funny, i don't get stage fright when i'm on stage.
then again, having some dude stare at my junk while i try to piss on command is a little different.
bah.

My all encompassing hate for my job has manifested itself in the form of this unshakeable sickness. I put in my two week notice today. It's time to move on anyway, let me express myself for godsake. i'm hanging up the valiantly lame apron of Lunchlady Man and changing to the next superhero costume -My Own Hero Man!

so i finally moved away from my roommates. alone, peace at last. all is well except for the STREP. well, that and finding out the hard way that i'm allergic to penicillin. been a great week in other words. been seeing a girl. told her i probably infected her. probably seen her for the last time. i'm not crying.

wow, what a night. went to the sleepytime gorilla museum show last night and further solidified my friendship with everyone in the band. fantastic people. usually when i try to talk to people that i esteem high enough to be intimidated by them, i find myself tongue tied, but last night was smooth. got in for free cause everyone thought i was in the band,...
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burnt the holy hell out of my hand today - right on my palm! pot holder slipped, my hand didn't. still just a sensation, not a feeling. it puts a damper on packing my things and moving boxes...
certainly is lonely waiting for everyone else to grow up.

so i'm starting to wonder if i really seem like a big asshole. i dont FEEL like one, but ever since i went from liquor and pot to coffee and cigs, my vision is clearer, my ego and desires are dead, and my honesty is brutal. i've come clean. the people and things i don't need have been shed from my life and my passions,...
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so i'm officially on diversion as of today. a year of vivid dreams. could be worse.