my self image just got kicked in the teeth
why do they keep doing that
and why do i open myself up for it
i've been trying so hard to make my life work
what am i doing...if i go someplace else will it realy be any better...i wanted to at least go away for my birthday...i tried to plan it...but things and people fell through... one buy one...thats the way it works...things fall through...they all just keep falling...and then i'm there running around belowe insainly trying to catch it all and fix fix fix...
i don't even no what i'm strugeling so hard for...theres no place i want to be...no one i want to be with...i'm not sure i want things anymore.... or a home.... or a garden...i couldn't even tell you if i have a pet ...there's a cat looking at me right now...but i don't know if he's mine or not...
i have an image in my head...soft bright green moss under a willow and a stream far away from everything and everyone...i want to be there ...if i was there then i could cry it all out of my system...and maybe things would feel ok again
why do they keep doing that
and why do i open myself up for it
i've been trying so hard to make my life work
what am i doing...if i go someplace else will it realy be any better...i wanted to at least go away for my birthday...i tried to plan it...but things and people fell through... one buy one...thats the way it works...things fall through...they all just keep falling...and then i'm there running around belowe insainly trying to catch it all and fix fix fix...
i don't even no what i'm strugeling so hard for...theres no place i want to be...no one i want to be with...i'm not sure i want things anymore.... or a home.... or a garden...i couldn't even tell you if i have a pet ...there's a cat looking at me right now...but i don't know if he's mine or not...
i have an image in my head...soft bright green moss under a willow and a stream far away from everything and everyone...i want to be there ...if i was there then i could cry it all out of my system...and maybe things would feel ok again
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but i can totally relate to this. you know what happened on my bday? nothing. no one cared to remember. so i stayed home and watched tv. and you know what will happen this year? the same thing. but thats okay. i wish i could just run away to a place were time didnt matter. were i could just exist without purpose or reason. to just exit without worry. i know there is no such place on this earth as that but thinking about it puts my soul at peace. in anycase dont let humans get you down. thats all they are there for anyway right