kittypiefacehead

- I let my friend dye my hairs last night. I should have done it myself. Im not happy with it.

+ My distaste for it will probably fade as quickly as unnatural hair color does anyway.

- My parents have no concept of time or space. They are not good at planning or advanced notice with much of anything. This means I get my day rearranged without notice too often.

+ I decided to let their piss poor planning and communication be thier own problem today.

- Aaron's mom called me today, 3 days after she'd left to say thank you for how much I went out of my way for her while she was here. I didn't have anything to say.

- A friend of mine is plagued by intense anxiety.

+ Me, him, and my bf spent last night just chillin in my bed watchin movies and relaxing. Afterwards we all almost fell asleep together. He said today he wished he would have stayed because he felt safe and like he was with family.

-/+ Dreams about my exbf/good friend have been getting more consistant. They're filled with familiar comfort and excitement mixed with almost nonexistant guilt. I feel like I live two separate lives between dreams and "reality." I feel physical sensations from pleasure to pain in my dreams. In my dreams I think about what I did in previous dreams and how it will affect the present one. Example: While making out with my friend in a dream I was thinking how upset Aaron will be because I've done it every other time I saw my friend (in dreams.) Sometimes I can tell I'm dreaming. Lately I can't. Sometimes I wonder if I'm dreaming when I'm really awake... .. . . . . .
At least I've stopped having nightmares.