kittykatznme

Life continues to suck at a quicker pace than usual. Jen has been feeling sick and nauseous, and throwing up again. Her legs have turned blue and are very painful. I don't know if it is her diabetes, fibromyalgia or her heart working at ten percent. She has not been eating much and gets tired just going to the bathroom. I have been strong through all of this, but now I feel like I am running out. It hurts me to see her sick and suffering, the stress of seeing everything that she is going through, and the uncertainty of her getting better, I don't know what to do. Jen is the person who I would go to seeking comfort and reassurance, now I have no one. She is in pain all the time and if I hold her tight, it causes her pain. How am I supposed to deal with all of this?? Honestly, seeing how she has been since the pacemaker was installed, I don't think that she will be here next year for our anniversary. I don't know what to do. Help me. I don't know how much more I can take.