kittykatznme

ok, my last blog i mentioned that i am having feelings for someone i have been chatting with. We had some issues last week, i tend to want it all and now. we had some stalker issues, but i think we are getting past those. I still feel that i am developing feelings for this person, but meeting her is basically a pipe dream. I keep trying and she gets more elusive.
For those of you who do not know; Jen has an enlarged heart and had a three wire pacemaker implanted in December, but it is not doing what it is supposed to. Add fibromyalgia, brittle diabetes and severe pain in her jaw up to her ear..
I was expecting to be roasted over the coals for asking solutions for not being able to have sex. And looking for an outlet.
At this point, i am not sure if we will ever be able to have sex again, She has been so weak even after the pacemaker, i wonder what is going to happen next.
All I want is for Jen to get better, but I have needs too. I need to find a balance