Jen is telling me to stop worrying and start living life again. Well, I don't live much anyways, I work and come home, although I have not been going to work for the past few days. She wants me to go back, but work is full of negative energy and I don't need that. Her cardiologist scheduled her for an angiogram today. On one hand I want to find out what is wrong, on the other hand, I worry that something might happen. Her mother is driving me crazy!!! One day she complains that they are over medicating her, then she says that they gave her the wrong dose of bisoprolol, and that caused all her problems. Why didn't she go to the hospital earlier? She should have stayed in the last time she was in the ER, she needs to take care of herself, why are they giving her so many drugs, that doctor does not know what he is doing...........repeat ad nausium. I don't know how people can live in the would have, should have and could have universe. If we could change the past, fine. Since we can't change the past, why dwell on it? Yes, maybe I should have been more insistent about going to the ER. While her mother keeps going on about this point, what was done is done, move on. Why surround Jen with negative energy? I am trying to focus on her getting better. I hope that they find something that can be fixed on the angiogram. Sorry for the rambling, I have a lot of things on my mind.
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kittykatznme:
It is almost like a nervous condition because when I tell her, she says "I know" stops for a bit then starts all over again. Even Jen tells her to shut up once in a while, then it starts again later. I am trying not to bring any negative energy when I go to visit. Mom goes during the day and I go in the evening, although living above her parents kind of erases the staggered visiting times. I am glad to report that the medication she is trying for her stomach is working!! They are going to leave it at the current dose until they get the heart figured out. She sees the gastroenterologist again in October.
atomicbetty:
You're absolutely right, but everyone reacts differently. She is hurting for her daughter too . . . just remember that. You're in my thoughts 