This has been the worst few days ever.
To think that two days ago I was waking up with him, and now its all over.
I totally don't know what to do with myself. every plan I had for the future included him, and now I've fucked it all up.
I dont see how he can have been ready to move in with me, and then want to through it all away so eaily.
A couple of people have said they think it sounds like he was looking for an excuse to end it, which has just sent my brain into overdrive.
Everywhere I look theres something that reminds me of him. He means everything to me. I just want him back.
Sorry for such a depressing blog.
x
To think that two days ago I was waking up with him, and now its all over.
I totally don't know what to do with myself. every plan I had for the future included him, and now I've fucked it all up.
I dont see how he can have been ready to move in with me, and then want to through it all away so eaily.
A couple of people have said they think it sounds like he was looking for an excuse to end it, which has just sent my brain into overdrive.
Everywhere I look theres something that reminds me of him. He means everything to me. I just want him back.
Sorry for such a depressing blog.
x
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When we are romantically involved with someone for a while, they come to appear uniquely suited to be with us and anyone else seems like a very poor substitute. You can't just wipe away the pain of losing the relationship and the future you thought you had, and it has to hurt for a while. The logical part of you knows that anyone so dishonest and inauthentic as to keep silent about his feelings until he's ready to lower the boom on you is not what you want for the rest of your life.
We all go through this sort of thing and the pain will diminish, and you will not be harmed by the experience, unless you decide that his bad behaviour is somehow your fault. It's not, and no-one deserves dishonesty and insensitivity.