kirkwood

Soooo, I need to vent and here at least it's anonymous enough... Soooo, I'm free again...been free again for a while. And found being on my own is not only as great as I thought it would, it also sucks just as much. I'm happy, but fuck I'm lonely. It's good that I have the best friends in the world. The best. None higher. I kinda fear that going away, but that's paranoia at this point...kinda.

Then the whole crazy business with a long time ago ex coming into the picture. Hazily, crazily and I know I'm just chasing ether. Not the good kind. I hate that I still have a connection with her, or at least I would swear to it in court and on a polygraph. I'm setting myself up for disappointment.

Thank god for all things beer, and soon to be vodka and gin. Say it with me folks: Gin, Gin, Gin Sala-bim!!!