kirin

New news. I've talked it over with friends, family, and coworkers. I'll be staying in Michigan at least another year. I'm too mentally and emotionally fucked up to make a decision on where to go or what to do. I own a house here, I have great friends here, and I have a job that most days doesn't make me want to kill myself. My boss also doesn't want me leaving in the middle of the projects we're working on and he's scared of the knowledge I'll take with me when I go. I might actually be a loss to them when I leave.

I'm feeling really fucked up. I'm alone in my house and though nothing has really changed because he was never really here to begin with I feel more alone than I have in a long time. Zarphin has been crashing in my guest room so I'm not totally alone which helps but I'm still having trouble sleeping and I feel sick to my stomach a lot.

Whining over.