kirika

I got given a heart for valentines.

Its not on a card, or on a chain.

Its embossed on the pill I hold in my hand.

I want it. I dont want it. I want to feel like I havent in years. I want to float, fly and dream. I want my skin to melt when its touched, for every sensation to be amplified. To dance to a different beat.

I know it will blow the past couple of years. I know that there will be no going back. It will make me a failure to myelf. Its going to change me, again.

What to do. *sigh*