The title is fitting. Was told I wouldn't need chemo. Apparently that's not the case. Starting Cisplatin (chemo) tomorrow.
This whole ordeal has been not quite a blur, but a meh! Until tomorrow.
To say I'm scared, is a motherfucking understatement.
I mentioned to a friend something about throwing up and losing my hair, in the same sentence, & how in scared for that.
His response, "well if you lose your hair, you won't get vomit in it!" That's the support I need! Thank you sooooo much for being the ears, shoulder, and reasoning I need.
None of the bullshit, "you got this", "you'll be fine".
I need, the fucking truth. I need people to be real with me and not change.
Sorry, sorry, sorry for my constant pity party! :(
Thanks everyone :)
-Kirbs
