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I'm not going to be feeling sorry for my fucking self.

EVER.

Only losers do that.


...now stand up young man, it's only beginning.


Much love to you all. I hope everything's fine in your world.

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kay:
I have been so low that whale shit looks like stardust to me. wink That is one of my favorite quotes.

*smooch*

Have a splendid day.

~cheers
juxlii:
FUCK YES!!!!!

Well said. Sometimes you gotta be like the mighty fucking phoenix. Burn it down. It's time for Kinto to rock anew.

(edited cuz i kant fucking spel)

[Edited on Oct 16, 2004 2:17AM]
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MY OWN TESTIMONIAL

One part of me is the nicest person you'll ever meet. Charming, witty & sensible, I'll always find a way to make you smile and give love & happiness around me as much as possible.

Other part of me is this soul-crushing monster totally lacking self-confidence & self-respect, so stupidly shy when it comes to girls it's laughable. Utterly self-destructive, he will...
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deleteddelete:
No need to apologise dude - it helps to get stuff off your chest as I know very well.

All is not lost. Put together the best CV you can and keep your eyes open for other opportunities as there are plenty out there. I'm giving serious thought to moving over to the US in May next year. It's one of a few options open to me but I want to do one last big thing before I get tied down with any serious commitments. I'm thinking Seattle or San Francisco.

Hey, if all else fails we can just rob a bank, buy a mustang and cruise from coast to coast as fugitives. You can be Thelma, I'll be...erm....Linz biggrin
hermes:
Everyone had a monster, it's just whether they know what it looks like and how to leash it. Glad you seem to have yours pretty sorted... smile

So what have I missed? Anything? wink Looking forward to catching up with you on Halloween... biggrin
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Well, I guess I should update, although nothing of real significance has happened lately. It is funny when people ask you what youve done this weekend, whats your job, how you been keeping, etc... it makes you realize that your life is moving at the speed of light even though you might feel drenched in soaking immobility sometimes.

The journey is everything, this I know....
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oak:
Those that wander away from your path in life and take a bit of you with them when they go, remember that you also keep a bit of them with you, so really you don't lose anything; you just trade a bit of you for a bit of them. That's the joy in meeting new people and getting to know them -- everyone has something to offer on some level.

oak:
I have photographic evidence, look in my pics wink

And I actually remember all of last night, which is good! I managed the difficult task of getting just barely drunk and maintaining that level through the night, instead of gorging myself on ridiculous amounts of booze faster than my body can deal with it and hearing stories about where I'd been and what I'd done by other people, later on.
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kate:

biggrin
drexel:
oh awesome!!!! thanks darlin. kiss in other news...what have i missed?
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Life on hold.

I think I am quite the superstititious type & more often than not, I don't talk about anything that's happening in my life for fear it's somehow going to fuck it up. You know what I mean?

Well, anyway, yep, current state = Life on hold.

For those of you who read the previous entry, here's how the story goes... last Thursday,...
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hologram_____:
Wow, c'est trop cool! On dirait que ca avance bien plus vite que prevu! Youpi! smile

Eh ben c'te pauv' fashion victime la, elle est bien contente pour toi. biggrin kiss
deleteddelete:
Oh you will mate, you will. Be afraid though - it's not a pretty sight biggrin

Thankyou very much for my testimonial btw - when do you want the tenner? wink

Maybe see you on saturday bro. Take care til then.
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Today was a good day smile

Although it's quite stressful at work right now because I'm pretty much in charge of the call centre - boss being on holiday - I'm doing quite well.

Been playing squash again afterwards (will try & go twice a week), that is such a good way to let your frustrations & rage out! Not too long ago, I would have...
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drexel:
ps: i got a really nice email from someone.
pps: call me when you hear from this "wildcard" dude!
kay:
Thanks for the affection. Right now anything counts. Even if it is just saying hello.

*smooch*

~cheers
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Don't you think it's funny how people invariably change when they're in love with someone?

How they gradually focus their everything on one person and forget (without even noticing) that there's a world around them because nothing really matters apart from the relationship they're in? (no wonder it ends in tears most of the time). They slowly become oblivious of other people who care about...
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drexel:
yes. and i feel completely un-briefed about the happenings with my friends. what's the news, darlin? kiss
milky666:
dude, don't be crazy!!! you're not "just a memory". anyway, there's no chance of me being in love any time soon so we can be bitter and twisted together hahaha biggrin blackeyed

to be honest, i dont know what it is to feel happy in the relationship department any more. i don;t know what im looking for either, which makes me even sadder. i guess when you're in a relationship things can be emotionally a lot easier because you have someone you can rely on to a certain extent. it propels you into some kind of dream/fantasy world, away from the drudgery and toil of day to day living. many people are more frightened of being alone than staying in a half baked relationship, which i can understand but it really shocks me.

sorry,. this posting is really tangental and crap because im tired but you know what i mean. you're not alone dude.

i hope you're feeling ok today kinto,

kiss bok
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After what seems like forever... running around in circles, moving on backwards and hurting my head against imaginary walls, it would seem that I am beginning to get a glimpse of the path I am meant to walk.

This is the most amazing feeling...

...rediscovering urgency.

Remembering that learning is the beginning of everything; re-creating conviction, letting it become determination, finally turning into action.

I...
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nickysonic:
didnt mean to offend you, i just felf you were somehow negating it, like me saying you & yours is all in yr mind, yknow? i know thatas not wot you weere saying but thats how it came across. im not good company, im the same in or out so i try tostay in, it doesnt help, nothing does, part of me wants to see people but you know i cant ever see her or oa few other people. im somewhere else

kiss
kay:
*wave*

~cheers
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You say you're down on your luck
Hey baby it's a long long way up
Hold back now, hold back your fears

You say you're really down & out
And you feel like there's no way out now
Let go now, let go of your tears... some more

How many times have you asked yourself
Is this the hand of fate now that I've been...
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nouvelle:
yes..it comes from a poem i once wrote...i use to have a different name here but when i came back i changed it. you reminded me of the poem with your comment...i posted it in my journal today smile
estrada:
The storms never stop for long.
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The weeks been pretty ok so far. I guess that all the sun I bathed in is the main reason why. Im always amazed how much of a different person I become when Ive got light & warmth around me... which makes it all the more unbelievable that Ive stayed so long in Britain. I wish it wasnt that complicated to go where I wanna...
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arielcupcakes:
Thank you! kiss
juxlii:
That is truly the only thing.

Currently in Thailand with Maxx, getting ready to head out onto the sea in a rickety old boat.