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Tuesday Nov 30, 2004

Nov 30, 2004
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I've been thinking about many clever things we could discuss or I could just talk about... and as is so often the case, my words have gone missing, leaving me to dwell on thoughts that some would say are best not formulated.

It's easy to be seen as a monster when you don't feel the need to explain your actions.

I am at peace with myself although I am certainly not proud of many things I have done in a far away or in a more recent past... Not that I regret anything, mind. I would never have been able to learn & grow without my mistakes staring back at me in this mirror of soul I was born with.

Somehow, people can't grasp the fact that actions are not only happening for instant gratification. And what seems wrong and evil in the first place might appear to be the best and only thing that was to be done in order to set people you love free to face their incoming future.

I am not justifying my actions.

I am not selling you the good I feel like doing in order to make me feel better.

I am willing to help anybody as much as I can but don't you forget that I am flawed too and I never pretended I was the be all & end all of wisdom... I'm not even close when you look at it through a magnifying glass. So much to learn still.

In our world it is wrong to love more than one person at a time. It is wrong to break conventions & rules, eventhough they are clearly inappropriate. It is wrong to be alive. It is wrong to be a free thinker. It is wrong not to hate.

will kein Bestandteil sein

You were right, you that I hurt so much...

...maybe I'm not really from this planet after all.

I wish you will find the strength to overcome this so-called morality and the trap of virtue which only serves to lay the blame on someone else.

Let this not be all in vain.



Love + Light.


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tobie:
I often stop by to read your words although i comment less often than I should because I dont find the right words to express myself with, and rather than mis-represent I stay silent.
Today though, i hope I can say what i mean with clarity.

I'm envious that you are at peace with yourself ( a state which i attain fleetingly, but strive for always ), and sad that people seem to need to judge others, when they are so often unable to take responsibility for their own actions.

There are more things that i wanted to say, but since I don't know what prompted you to write this particular journal i will leave them unsaid, save to wish you happiness..


Dec 1, 2004
kay:
Nothing is in vain. smile

~cheers
Dec 1, 2004

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