Well, I guess I should update, although nothing of real significance has happened lately. It is funny when people ask you what youve done this weekend, whats your job, how you been keeping, etc... it makes you realize that your life is moving at the speed of light even though you might feel drenched in soaking immobility sometimes.
The journey is everything, this I know.
That would be nice to have more insight while its happening, though. Its a bit of a shame that more often than not, you have to wait until everythings dead & done to finally be able to estimate whats been (or not) accomplished and be happy (or not) with it. Step back; breathe... and move on, start it all over again.
In every dream home a heartache. In every new dawn a rebirth.
These last months have been an awakening of sorts for me; Ive been trying to stay on the bright side of life through the thick & thin or so they say and I found out that I havent been too bad at it so far significantly downsizing the occasional fall-outs & alcohol-induced mind-shattering delusional numbness.
A few words about SG...
This place has allowed me to reflect & change, redefine a better me. Ive met great people here that Im pleased to see/talk to on a regular basis. They could probably become best friends, if it wasnt for the fact that I still find it so very difficult to open up to people, get close to other souls, for too many of them have disappeared along my road, taking a bit of me with them every time... and subsequently sculpting a few more lines on my face.
What is there left when everybody else is gone?
Its such a thin line between living a full life & not getting too hurt when it comes to human relationships. Were all torn between self-preservation and true openness of heart.
Back to this place, Ive even fallen in love here, and learned to put action before theory when it comes to loving someone (...and having to watch them go). It made me happier than Ive ever been in what seems like forever, it made me peaceful; then it made me cry, it made me silent; and finally it made me humble.
You know who you are & Im glad youre in my life. I hope that youll still be around in many, many years. I want to be there to give you a red rose on your 30th birthday.
Finally, through you all that are reading those lines, Ive opened my eyes on a part of me that I can say I love. It feels good. Whatever the future holds, its nothing to worry about.
I will try my best to keep sunshine in my house as long as I am given time on this planet.
Everybodys welcome, for Im building a house with no doors.
Much
The journey is everything, this I know.
That would be nice to have more insight while its happening, though. Its a bit of a shame that more often than not, you have to wait until everythings dead & done to finally be able to estimate whats been (or not) accomplished and be happy (or not) with it. Step back; breathe... and move on, start it all over again.
In every dream home a heartache. In every new dawn a rebirth.
These last months have been an awakening of sorts for me; Ive been trying to stay on the bright side of life through the thick & thin or so they say and I found out that I havent been too bad at it so far significantly downsizing the occasional fall-outs & alcohol-induced mind-shattering delusional numbness.
A few words about SG...
This place has allowed me to reflect & change, redefine a better me. Ive met great people here that Im pleased to see/talk to on a regular basis. They could probably become best friends, if it wasnt for the fact that I still find it so very difficult to open up to people, get close to other souls, for too many of them have disappeared along my road, taking a bit of me with them every time... and subsequently sculpting a few more lines on my face.
What is there left when everybody else is gone?
Its such a thin line between living a full life & not getting too hurt when it comes to human relationships. Were all torn between self-preservation and true openness of heart.
Back to this place, Ive even fallen in love here, and learned to put action before theory when it comes to loving someone (...and having to watch them go). It made me happier than Ive ever been in what seems like forever, it made me peaceful; then it made me cry, it made me silent; and finally it made me humble.
You know who you are & Im glad youre in my life. I hope that youll still be around in many, many years. I want to be there to give you a red rose on your 30th birthday.
Finally, through you all that are reading those lines, Ive opened my eyes on a part of me that I can say I love. It feels good. Whatever the future holds, its nothing to worry about.
I will try my best to keep sunshine in my house as long as I am given time on this planet.
Everybodys welcome, for Im building a house with no doors.
Much
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And I actually remember all of last night, which is good! I managed the difficult task of getting just barely drunk and maintaining that level through the night, instead of gorging myself on ridiculous amounts of booze faster than my body can deal with it and hearing stories about where I'd been and what I'd done by other people, later on.