Im going to be 33 in 3 days 
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1985 20 years ago Little K is 13
Some of you were not even born then I was going to live one of the best years of my life after years of poor-health induced misery. Little did I know then that in my class was a girl that would turn my life around and change everything. I still wonder which person Id be if I had kissed her 2 years later in that elevator when she said she loved me and I said I love you and to this day, that was the last time I would ever see her.
Soundtrack of my life: Iron Maiden & other heavy metal bands
1990 15 years ago Little K is 18
I was just starting to discover what life could bring you, should you decide to embrace the Dark Side hahaha. That was non-stop partying with my punk friends. Goth wasnt even a denomination anybody had thought of back then. I was listening to rock, punk, cold wave & starting to be more & more into EBM & experimental. Life was good, seemingly infinite. I had my band, in which I truly believed in we were on top of the world and would all end up being Big Stars I had a fantastic network of friends; we were all on the same level, the same frame of mind. We were crazy, we were wild, and we were stupid. Youths privileges We lived the rocknroll fantasy. Still, I was always so alone, because of my relentless shyness when it came to girls, those girls I was thinking of as goddesses and not human beings.
Soundtrack of my life: Hanoi Rocks, The Dogs DAmour, The Cure, Jesus & Mary Chain, Skinny Puppy, Front Line Assembly, :zoviet*france:, Noir Dsir
1995 10 years ago K is turning 23
Little K is growing up, about to turn 23. Many things have changed. The band had exploded for all the usual stupid reasons in 1993 (girlfriend/work/mandatory army service) and I had already gone to London as a true believer, never knowing that soon enough I would leave it all behind and settle down there for almost 10 years. That year I learned (the hard way is there any other way?) that your best friend, the one you consider your brother will let you down as well someday. That year I started to understand that there is no-one you can always rely on were all alone in our lives when we expect it least. And there was this girl, where I work, whom I liked a lot. Didnt know at the time I would spend 5 years of my life with her and that she would eventually hurt me more than anybody else Id ever known.
Soundtrack of my life: DGeneration, Johnny Thunders, Marilyn Manson, some Ive cited earlier & a lot of experimental stuff + a lot of other bands I cant remember just now
2000 5 years ago Turning 28
One of the worst years of my life. It seems that everything was falling apart. By then, I had been living in London for 3 years & my love life was a shadow of its former self, about to lead to a break-up on Feb 2001. I was totally lost in my head, not knowing at the time that maybe it was not just the thought of not going to be a rock star ever that was eating me it was the plain fact that I didnt know what I wanted anymore, and deep down inside I couldnt face the fact that I wasnt even interested so much in being in a band anymore. Too many disappointments, too many heartbreaks. I had no clue whatsoever what I wanted, what I was supposed to do. The only thought left in my head 24/7 was that I was getting old. And all the alcohol & drugs in the world wouldnt change the fact that I was starting to think that my life, the good one, was behind me. Dark times indeed.
Soundtrack of my life: Backyard Babies, Tyla, The Jacobites, The Bounty Hunters, Social Distortion, The Yo-Yos... and This Ocean Home.
2005 Now Soon to be 33
I have finally left London. Left my job, left my life, left so many dear friends behind once again. I am currently in Florida, and I am in love with one of the most amazing human beings I have ever met. Life is still full of uncertainties, but at least it feels like my brain & my heart have started responding again. Its been a very frustrating and stressful year. But you have to go through those to move on. And thats the only thing I want right now. Move on, be born again. So far, so good, thats the only thing that matters. Dont be fooled by this retrospective I was never one to live in the past.
Soundtrack of my life: Silence. I dont listen to so many things these days. I enjoy silence more & more as I grow old. Still, I should mention, apart from the usual bands that havent left me in years, Troum, Maeror Tri, Rapoon, No Use For A Name, Blink 182, 16HP & Wovenhand, Assemblage 23, fLA, etc
Thats all for now, N has just got back from work so Ill just leave this. If I dont catch up with you in the virtual world before then, have a lovely Xmas & a Happy New Year.
Love you all, me.
Learn more about Kinto(TM)
Rewind
1985 20 years ago Little K is 13
Some of you were not even born then I was going to live one of the best years of my life after years of poor-health induced misery. Little did I know then that in my class was a girl that would turn my life around and change everything. I still wonder which person Id be if I had kissed her 2 years later in that elevator when she said she loved me and I said I love you and to this day, that was the last time I would ever see her.
Soundtrack of my life: Iron Maiden & other heavy metal bands
1990 15 years ago Little K is 18
I was just starting to discover what life could bring you, should you decide to embrace the Dark Side hahaha. That was non-stop partying with my punk friends. Goth wasnt even a denomination anybody had thought of back then. I was listening to rock, punk, cold wave & starting to be more & more into EBM & experimental. Life was good, seemingly infinite. I had my band, in which I truly believed in we were on top of the world and would all end up being Big Stars I had a fantastic network of friends; we were all on the same level, the same frame of mind. We were crazy, we were wild, and we were stupid. Youths privileges We lived the rocknroll fantasy. Still, I was always so alone, because of my relentless shyness when it came to girls, those girls I was thinking of as goddesses and not human beings.
Soundtrack of my life: Hanoi Rocks, The Dogs DAmour, The Cure, Jesus & Mary Chain, Skinny Puppy, Front Line Assembly, :zoviet*france:, Noir Dsir
1995 10 years ago K is turning 23
Little K is growing up, about to turn 23. Many things have changed. The band had exploded for all the usual stupid reasons in 1993 (girlfriend/work/mandatory army service) and I had already gone to London as a true believer, never knowing that soon enough I would leave it all behind and settle down there for almost 10 years. That year I learned (the hard way is there any other way?) that your best friend, the one you consider your brother will let you down as well someday. That year I started to understand that there is no-one you can always rely on were all alone in our lives when we expect it least. And there was this girl, where I work, whom I liked a lot. Didnt know at the time I would spend 5 years of my life with her and that she would eventually hurt me more than anybody else Id ever known.
Soundtrack of my life: DGeneration, Johnny Thunders, Marilyn Manson, some Ive cited earlier & a lot of experimental stuff + a lot of other bands I cant remember just now
2000 5 years ago Turning 28
One of the worst years of my life. It seems that everything was falling apart. By then, I had been living in London for 3 years & my love life was a shadow of its former self, about to lead to a break-up on Feb 2001. I was totally lost in my head, not knowing at the time that maybe it was not just the thought of not going to be a rock star ever that was eating me it was the plain fact that I didnt know what I wanted anymore, and deep down inside I couldnt face the fact that I wasnt even interested so much in being in a band anymore. Too many disappointments, too many heartbreaks. I had no clue whatsoever what I wanted, what I was supposed to do. The only thought left in my head 24/7 was that I was getting old. And all the alcohol & drugs in the world wouldnt change the fact that I was starting to think that my life, the good one, was behind me. Dark times indeed.
Soundtrack of my life: Backyard Babies, Tyla, The Jacobites, The Bounty Hunters, Social Distortion, The Yo-Yos... and This Ocean Home.
2005 Now Soon to be 33
I have finally left London. Left my job, left my life, left so many dear friends behind once again. I am currently in Florida, and I am in love with one of the most amazing human beings I have ever met. Life is still full of uncertainties, but at least it feels like my brain & my heart have started responding again. Its been a very frustrating and stressful year. But you have to go through those to move on. And thats the only thing I want right now. Move on, be born again. So far, so good, thats the only thing that matters. Dont be fooled by this retrospective I was never one to live in the past.
Soundtrack of my life: Silence. I dont listen to so many things these days. I enjoy silence more & more as I grow old. Still, I should mention, apart from the usual bands that havent left me in years, Troum, Maeror Tri, Rapoon, No Use For A Name, Blink 182, 16HP & Wovenhand, Assemblage 23, fLA, etc
Thats all for now, N has just got back from work so Ill just leave this. If I dont catch up with you in the virtual world before then, have a lovely Xmas & a Happy New Year.
Love you all, me.
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