kinorafa

I want to inflict pain...
not in the "oh, i want to kick some ass" pain.
No, i want to be the cause of pronlonged, unbearable mental pain, in the words of Mr. Durden, "I want to destroy something beautiful"
Now, i know this is not the most noble of whishes, but bear with me here my fellow lurkers and readers.
As you know, I'm in film school. As fewer know, it's not all cameras and lights, sometimes is good, old physical work, like cutting wood, painting stuff, carrying shit from point A to point B. This is called, ironically, the Art department.
Here is the deal.
People from the Photography class are making an exercise, they are shooting a sequence in 16mm film, but since they can't do everything by themselves, they need us, the Direction class. So, I volunteer to help, no biggie, plus, you lear tons. Next day I'm told I was placed in the Art Department, once again, no big deal, i've done it before and I enjoy it, plus, it can be really fun. As director? no. Prop Master? nop, I am an art assistant...ok.
Who's the director? some girl.
Ok, what girl?
She is from the 2nd year.
Um, strike one.
See, I don't mind being an assitant, but being a "senior" and having to work under a "junior", being this a "senior" exercise, I don't see it that clear, but what the heck, is just an exercise.
First meeting, we have to build a "mine tunnel", or at least something that looks close enough. Ok, let's do it.
Me, the other guy working as assistant (also a senior) and this girl, we start throwing ideas around. I share my experience in bulding stuff from the last couple of short films I have worked on, the other guy shares his ideas of having worked in a hardware store all his life (his dad owns one).
Result?
Our ideas get thorougly ignored and she goes with her own plan. Strike two.
So, we start. I'm working on another proyect, a couple of short films, so i have to split my time and ignore my own proyects (scripts, photos) in order to help here. And this is where it gets murderous.
She has aobsolutely no boss skills, at all. She doesn't explains what she wants, not what her overall idea is, she just says "do this, this, and this" and while you are doing it, she complains you are not doing "that" or what you are doing is wrong, despite folowing her instructions.
So, when i go to consult something I'm not quite sure, she just blurts "but do it, you don't have to ask me, you just do stuff, you are just stading there and do nothing, do something".
Strike three, i want to murder this bitch, saw style.
Look, i don't want to brag, but never, ever in all the works i've done, in all the short films i'ev worked, i've been called on doing nothing. I'm always helping out, even if it's not in my area.
Who the fuck does she think she is? not only she has alienated her whole crew by ignoring us, but then she tells me this. Not only that, she has invited three other outsiders (i don't give a shit if they go to the same school or not, you respect your team) and all she does is talk portuguese to them while in front of us (they all share the same mother toungue).
And now, this little fuck head who's stepping on everybody's toes comes and starts ordering me around, while not even being in the team or in the proyect to begin with? you know what, fuck you all, fuck you deep and hard and unpleasently.
This is the first time somebody has made me despise my work so much, and i fucking hate it cause i love my job.
So, fuck it, I'm leaving...but first the cherry of the cake...
The school director comes and says something along the lines "wow, nice work on the art deparment", and the little fuck goes and says that all these girls (meaning, everybody but the other guy and me) are doign a good job.
Fuck, fuck fuck, i want to kick his ass so bad.
So, thank you for listening to my irate rant, i needed to blow off steam less i go and represent on their stinking asses.
animetronic