Ok, so it's not so bad. I will go home and try to finish out my senior year in community college through the running start program. I will also be able to go to lots of shows and have more freedom. Hopefully get a job at the dog grooming place again...
I had to withdraw because I was on probation for overcutting... and I slept through some classes, so I failed my probation requirements (which was to not have unexcused absences).
I was so close too! Just one and a half terms. But I really was very unhappy here. Maybe this was my subconscious telling me something. This is so not the right place for me... maybe it was good when I was 14. But now... it's like, I felt like I was in a prison because it's so hard to get off campus, and I saw the same faces every day... wherever I went. I couldn't get away. I dreaded getting up in the morning and going to the dining hall. I know, that sounds silly... but I also felt so removed from the world. Andover is such a bubble. Anyway, I've pretty much just complicated things a lot. Ah well.
Nothing I can do about it now, and I want to go home. I want to see my dog, and sit in front of the fireplace, and make cookies! I'd also like to finally have some time to read for fun, or even write again. This school is so demanding and it just sapped any creativity I had left.
Today would have been really sucky... what with the packing and all. But two things cheered me up: a phonecall from Neil just to see how I was doin' and a package from Minimalism. Yay! Thanks you guys. I
you. *hugs*
I had to withdraw because I was on probation for overcutting... and I slept through some classes, so I failed my probation requirements (which was to not have unexcused absences).
I was so close too! Just one and a half terms. But I really was very unhappy here. Maybe this was my subconscious telling me something. This is so not the right place for me... maybe it was good when I was 14. But now... it's like, I felt like I was in a prison because it's so hard to get off campus, and I saw the same faces every day... wherever I went. I couldn't get away. I dreaded getting up in the morning and going to the dining hall. I know, that sounds silly... but I also felt so removed from the world. Andover is such a bubble. Anyway, I've pretty much just complicated things a lot. Ah well.
Nothing I can do about it now, and I want to go home. I want to see my dog, and sit in front of the fireplace, and make cookies! I'd also like to finally have some time to read for fun, or even write again. This school is so demanding and it just sapped any creativity I had left.
Today would have been really sucky... what with the packing and all. But two things cheered me up: a phonecall from Neil just to see how I was doin' and a package from Minimalism. Yay! Thanks you guys. I
you. *hugs*VIEW 6 of 6 COMMENTS
so did you want to go down to portland on saturday for the party? i might be able to provide a ride if you provide gas money cause i have absolutly none... it sucks ass