kinkerbelle

I am sad, because I was supposed to have the pups already. I ran into a financial situation, but had already paid the deposits on them previously. The breeder listed them on his web site as available, and has sold one of them already. (Which one, I have no idea). So since I couldn't come up with the money right away, then he is selling them to other people, it seems. I am very disappointed, because my kids were dieing for an American bulldog puppy, and I never get a chance to get things for them. I just seem to always be one of those people who are shit out of luck. I was going to see about getting one from another breeder who is close, and has a new litter of pups, but I don't have the money for the deposit now. And I can't even afford to get them Christmas presents this year. I just want my kids to be happy. I could care less about myself. Plus, there's many more things that are going wrong, but I'll spare you all the details. Cheyenne has been very sick with high fevers on and off. Sorry for all the sappy stuff, but sometimes I feel like I'd be better off 6 feet under. 1 more thing... I do have a deep thanks and appreciation for those of you who have helped me so much since I've been here on Suicide girls. It's you guys that give me happiness, joy, relief from stress, laughter, as well as someone who I can call my friend.

Update: Thank you for all your caring comments. I can't respond at the moment, because I am having to constantly look after Cheyenne. I found out why Cheyenne has been so sick. She suddenly started breaking out with chicken pox on her face, back, and chest tonight. She is so miserable. And I read on the internet that it could take up to 21 days to fully clear up, so she may be this way for Christmas. When Dakota had got chicken pox, he only had a few bumps, then they went away. I remember I got them when I was about 8, and I had them all over, from head to toe. It sucked ass, and I was itching like a mofo.