So, I am 26 years old. I am in a long term relationship and live with my boyfriend. I have never done anything I'm not supposed to. I never drank until I was old enough, I have never smoked anything or done any sort of drugs in my life. I don't put myself in dangerous situations. But, I have always been depressed to some degree since I can remember. It's not very severe, I can fake happiness with the best of them. And nothing is wrong with my life. I have a good job. An apartment. I have never been abused or neglected. So where does my unhappiness come from? I honestly don't know. But recently, I feel like doing things that I have missed out on. I love being drunk, a sort of numbness in my state. But I would really like to try another route. Something else that could help me to feel something different. I am aware that this is not helpful to my issues but seems like it would be fun. However, I am naive and innocent to the entire world of such substances. My question is: what has anyone done and what were their experiences. Don't judge me! Lol