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I started my partial unemployment on Wednesday and now I'm more depressed than ever. I have all the time in the world but really no where to go that doesn't involve spending money.

Adding to the stress was trying to get my Doctor to renew my perscription. I take Atenonol for my WPW Syndrome, have been on it since '91 when I had the exploratory surgery that determined it wasn't severe enough to get operated on. So basically I have to take this pill once a day for the rest of my life. And the Doctor's office knows this. Yet, they insist on seeing me twice a year just to get the permission to get my script which infuriates me to no end. I have no fucking health insurance and think it's fucking stupid to be paying $80 a pop to get the OK.

So I tried on Wednesday to have them call it in, they said no problem. Call the pharmacy Thursday, they never called it in. I called the Dr back Friday, twice even, went to the Pharmacy today and no dice again. Now I went into the Dr.'s office expecting to raise holy hell and try not to kick my heart in it's condition which I need said medication for in the first place! They wrote it down and said they would. Went to the pharmacy a little while ago and it where there thank God, with a bonus of 2 more refills! YAAAAAY! I was really stressing 'coz I took my last pill today and I'm facing a hellacious day at work tomorrow being it's the kiddie Xmas party, oh joy! So after getting my script, I loaded up at Wawa for a "I'm stessed out and need my fatty heroin" meal which I'm now feeling guilty as fuck over. Ah, the cycle of being a fatty!

I'm really worried about Cindy as well. I think we've both come to the realization that we never can be together. That doesn't however stop us from living the fantasy. Her friendship means the world to me as well. She's going thru some serious money issues herself. I just feel helpless over here. We're always be a support system for each other no matter what. Hearing her in tears over the stress on the phone today made that feeling of helplessness increase even more. Some Christmas we're both having so far.

Speaking of which, I think I mentioned how I was getting the Best Buy version of KISSology for my buddy Snowy in England. Well, I got it yesterday in the mail finally and it no longer has the bonus disc! I told her I insist on sending my own copy. Chrimbo won't be ruined!

My ex Irma invited me over to hang out last night. We wound up watching "The Fisher King". What an excellent movie! Seeing Robin Williams do a full monty was a little disturbing, but besides that, the acting and visuals were ace! I highly recommend ths movie.

Band is on a one week hiatus while Penny is up in CT. helping Ben from NRL make his own DVD. He's playing bass tonight for The Prozacs in a gig in MA. NRL is playing in NYC for the battle of the bands quarter finals. Winner gets another step close to a Million dollar contract or something. Shane Problem is pissed I'm not going. Oh well, I got my job to think about dude. At least Andy and a few other locals are going I think. Our next show is next Saturday and then one on 12/30 in North Jersey.

I predict an early sleeping night tonight...