kingkiwi

not sure why but i feel the need to come up with a plan for the rest of my life...

the truth is that i am not happy with the way things are going...

i'm always poor... i'm unmotivated... i have no goals... and most of the time i'm not happy...

i need some structure (god... i sound like my father)

but i need something that will get me threw this life that i can be happy with...

all my ideas to get ahead have been abandoned...

i need something... anything that will give my life purpose...

i NEED a purpose...

i'm not sure how to go about this... i think one of the main things that i have to realize is that getting to my goal will be a lot of work... it will never be easy... people will try to cut me down...

but i think there will be a happiness in achieving something just because i love doing it...

it can be anything... if i want to be a writer i can go back to school and learn how to write better... if i want to be a garbage man i can actually be a garbage man... if i want to slip out out society and live in the forest i can learn how to fend for myself...i can do anything i fucking want...

there will always be critics... like i said it will never be easy...

i just want to find that thing that will make me happy and i'll deal with the problems when i get there...

i guess i can start out by writing a list of all the things i like to do... and all the things that i want to accomplish in my life...

maybe after that i can narrow i down to what i really want to pursue...

right now... i want to sleep.... i'm so tired form working in customer service... it's so draining...

Kiwi