kingdutch

im getting a job! an office assistant at my church. it will be perfect. life feels a lot better now, even though i still really don't understand some people. at least i understand myself right now. and for the first time in a while i am happy with how i am. i shouldn't have to feel i have to change for anybody ever again. because who i am is awesome and whoever would want me to change anymore than i have isn't worth the trouble. i just wish i could understand why a certain someone has changed so much, because they aren't being who they really are and its frustrating. and just because i couldn't change to be everything i *thought* they wanted, they decide to change instead and just push me away. i don't deserve that betrayal. i won't change for someone else i will only change to be happier with who i am. if someone else doesnt end up liking me just for who i am well then so be it. thats retarded. but i'm tired of feeling that way. i'm happy with who i am and so should you. don't freakin hold it against me for never being perfect because i never will be. but at least now i know i don't have to be. i just wish someone would realize i was being myself when they fell in love with me and they shouldn't want anything different now. and now i am even better than before. love will find a way. i just wish who i am is something someone could love.