so it's always a weird situation updating this journal. mainly because i know various people read it, and so i cater my entries to cater to the information i want them to know. unfortunately, that leaves other people who read this looking for an update into my life sort of at a loss. weird situations all around.
so i moved back to pittsburgh and met a girl. i was thoroughly convinced that she was the perfect girl for me because she was exactly like me in just about every way. i hung out with her a lot, we did the whole dating thing, and i took her virginity. don't worry folks, she was well within consentual age, but that just abstains me from being a criminal - i'm still an asshole. i didn't press the issue of sex, she was pretty convinced that she was ready for it - enough to convince me she was at least. so whatever, it happened, we both enjoyed it. two weeks later - BAM. i come to the sudden realization that i had been trying to convince myself that this was the perfect girl for me. i was telling myself what i wanted in a girl, rather than listening to myself. i needed a complimentary personality, rather than an identical one. i'm still an asshole.
so right around the time that this relationship is ending, i happen to meet up with another online friend. i had made friends with her because i was staying up till 8 in the morning, and she would sign online at 7:30 AM when she got to work. so we decided to hang out, and we had a lot of fun. now this girl was everything that i had been telling myself i wasn't looking for in a girl. she drinks
, she smokes, she's not into the same type of music i am ....she even thinks that friday the 13th wasn't the quality line of cinematic gems that we all know it is. but damned if we didn't hit it off more than i've hit it off with anyone in a very long time. so for the passed 2 weeks i've been hanging out with this girl and enjoying myself a lot. so whatever, for the first time in a long time i feel like i am completely comfortable with someone. i'm still an asshole, but at least i found someone who doesn't mind that so much.
so that's the update, made especially for betty
and michelle
, who i think are the only two people who really read this anymore anyway.
so i moved back to pittsburgh and met a girl. i was thoroughly convinced that she was the perfect girl for me because she was exactly like me in just about every way. i hung out with her a lot, we did the whole dating thing, and i took her virginity. don't worry folks, she was well within consentual age, but that just abstains me from being a criminal - i'm still an asshole. i didn't press the issue of sex, she was pretty convinced that she was ready for it - enough to convince me she was at least. so whatever, it happened, we both enjoyed it. two weeks later - BAM. i come to the sudden realization that i had been trying to convince myself that this was the perfect girl for me. i was telling myself what i wanted in a girl, rather than listening to myself. i needed a complimentary personality, rather than an identical one. i'm still an asshole.
so right around the time that this relationship is ending, i happen to meet up with another online friend. i had made friends with her because i was staying up till 8 in the morning, and she would sign online at 7:30 AM when she got to work. so we decided to hang out, and we had a lot of fun. now this girl was everything that i had been telling myself i wasn't looking for in a girl. she drinks
, she smokes, she's not into the same type of music i am ....she even thinks that friday the 13th wasn't the quality line of cinematic gems that we all know it is. but damned if we didn't hit it off more than i've hit it off with anyone in a very long time. so for the passed 2 weeks i've been hanging out with this girl and enjoying myself a lot. so whatever, for the first time in a long time i feel like i am completely comfortable with someone. i'm still an asshole, but at least i found someone who doesn't mind that so much.
so that's the update, made especially for betty
and michelle , who i think are the only two people who really read this anymore anyway. VIEW 5 of 5 COMMENTS
penelopelee:
jamie. YOU ARE NOT AN ASSHOLE. you are one of the nicest guys i know. seriously. like, seriously seriously.
theoutsider:
It's a fine line between what works for you, and what you tell yourself you're looking for. Girls like me are a lot of fun, girls nothing like me, i'd go to the ends of the earth for.... go figure...