kiddoe

I sit amazed at where I am now. I used to have nothing and was in nowhere Tennessee. I love Tennessee...but there's nothing there. I would not take my time away that I had there. The friends and people I grow up with would know where I'm coming from ... I miss certain things. and the simple things. Here....I lucky and thankful got a job that can set me for life...I'm even flying for the first time to Miami for additional training. But at the same time, I'm feeling overwhelmed because, I still want to get fucked up and it's such an up-tight work environment sometimes. I miss the days where I could be myself. And that's just it....I like where I'm going .... I'm as far as I wanted to be in my dreams... but I feel I'm trying to be someone else. I want to be real. But can I be real .... and hold my own...